So, it's been a while ... long while since I truely shared a day in the life of me, lately. God's been Faithful, that's for sure. Dylan's been .... Dylan   I took him to Pine Rest on Thursday to have him go through their ADD clinic there... He's already been diagnosed with ADHD but I just want to be sure. ADHD is so.. hard to accept. There doesn't seem to be a true understanding of it or about it. I want to be able to fix it for him but I can't. I want for people to accept him, when he's beeing his adventurous self and not glare at me or him.. and if one more person says to me a wooden spoon will fix it, I think I might bite their head off.

Still single

Works going great.. doing the two job thing now, has me pretty busy.. School's become a last priority, but I'm hanging in there.. and pulling average grades.. not that I'm proud of them.. but at least I'm trying.

I miss having a social life.... but at least I can say my priorites are in the right place.

Dylan's gone for two days, and I dont have to work either job today.. I'm a bit lost

T minus 15 minutes people

So in a not rushed for time perfect world, I would have had time to share my whole story.... but when asked could  I share my story.. and I let them know I have to be to work at 1:00 and I'm asked to share it at 12:45... do I say no, once she already tells me and the whole church I am doing it... so sorry to those people who were expecting more. lol.. timing is everything.   It's just that much more preperation for the day when I have an hour or more to share it all.

I've enjoyed my days off this week. The family that adopted Jenna came yesterday and stayed through today. Jenna has had a lot of questions, about where she came from, and took this trip very seriously. I arranged a tour of the hospital she was born in, for her to see that, it was a bit over whelming, as I haven't been back there since the day she was born. After the tour, we went to Applebee's for lunch with Jill, (adoptive Mom) Jenna  Dylan Aunt Cathy and myself.  Pictures at 3 of Dylan and Jenna how I wished I had more money at the time, I would have ordered the $1,100.00 package that was first offered to us. The photographer arranged a slide show, and put it to music (God must have spent a little more time on you.)

"God Must Have Spent A Little More Time On You"

Yeah....
Oh yes
Ohhh..yeah..
Can this be true?
Tell me, can this be real?
How can I put into words what I feel?
My life was complete
I thought I was whole
Why do I feel like I'm losing control?
I never thought that love could feel like this
and you've changed my world with just one kiss.
How can it be that right here with me
there's an angel?
It's a miracle...

Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent...
A little more time
On you...
(A little more time, yes he did baby)

In all of creation
All things great and small
You are the one that surpasses them all
More precious than
Any diamond or pearl
They broke the mold
When you came in this world
And I'm trying hard to figure out
Just how I ever did without
The warmth of your smile
The heart of a child
That's deep inside
Leaves me purified

Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep (and deep)
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent...
A little more time
On you...
(on you, on you, on you, you....on you, on you, on you, you..) ohhh...
(on you, on you, on you, you....on you, on you, on you, you..) yeah...

Never thought that love could feel like this
and you changed my world with just one kiss.
How can it be that right here with me
There's an angel?
It's a miracle...

Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep (peaceful and deep)
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent...
A little more time
On you...
(on you, on you, on you, you..)
God must have spent...
A little more time
on you
(on you, on you..you....you..oooh..yeah)
A little more time
on you...ohhh

Yes, I bawled like a baby... I think the photographer and everyone else thought Jill and I were "Life Partners."

Many more thoughts about the visit, but I'm emotionally drained right now..

AHhh.. long time no post.

So as most figured out by now, I"m sure, that the wedding once again isn't happening. Long story... pretty much boils down to me not being able to forgive..and me answering questions from a highly educated person. Then, making me answer the self inflicted questions myself, rather than tell me what to do. *sigh* sad huh. Then after that was broke off, an Aunt passed away.. with in three weeks of finding out she had cancer, that was hard. I was very thankful to have the chance to say good-bye to her, rather than have her go with out notice. Her husband, my uncle died five years ago, with in two months of finding out he had cancer... what's the deal with this 'disease.' it's HORRIBLE.

 I work every Sunday, so when I have time to make it to Church on a Sunday I feel refreshed, and renewed. Other wise it's just at various times and days whenI  have the time, to make the time.  Why does that make me feel guilty ? 

Dylan's been busy with tee-ball and racing dirt bikes... he's grown up so fast. His Father for what ever reason has decided that he wants to be in Dylan's life... after six and a half years.. so more power to him, if he feel's he's ready.. lets get the show on the road, it's been long enough. I go to court on Wedesday for a parenting schedule. - How rediculous does that sound ?!

The parents that I chose to adopt Jenna, invited me to her Preschool graduation. I spent all day and most of the night in Indiana with them a few weeks ago. The emotions that filled that day were very moving. To be able to see and hold and talk to Jenna is such a blessing. Jenna is so beautiful and happy.. They've given her so much more than I ever could have provided, I'm very thankful for the Selvey's. I love them all like family. Jenna has asked if she could come see the hospital that she was born in, so they're bringing her here this summer for a few days, and Maria Pruis is going to give us all a tour. Maybe I can talk them into coming to church with me again when they come this time.

Work's going great. Not much to speak of in that area. Schools.... expensive that's all I have to say about that. Pretty depressing when I hear from my academic counselor that I make more money than she does, and she has her Bachelors.. Remind me again why I'm going to school, please. I guess school's not all about how much money you make when you're done though.. I do appreciate the education regardless.  

I could use a girls night out...